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[endlessrarities]

It's been a bit hectic over the last couple of days, but everything should be back to normal now. 

I've spent the last couple of days working in a place which was just like my old chemistry lab from school.  After it had been visited by the zombie cast of 28 days later and left to endure a nuclear winter for three decades or more.  It's been a pain in the neck to record - I spent most of the morning writing up a fume cupboard..,

And it's not over yet.

Tonight, I went horse-riding.  I was absolutely knackered, so I just stayed in walk and worked on my leg position.  Turns out my left leg is now perfect, but my right leg keeps creeping up and it seems I've developed a slght list to the left.  I'm now working to correct this.

My partner for the evening was Indy, She's not very supple, but the exercise, to keep turning down the centre line and change the rein, seemed to help her as much as it helped me.  We stayed in walk, as I just couldn't bring myself to crank up the pace.  Indy is ewe-necked and very short in the back, but she was beginning to try and stretch out by the end of the half-hour.

Then, at the end, I noticed she had a nosebleed. 

I've never see this in a horse before.  It's a bit unnerving.  But I'm assured it was probably just a burst capilliary and nothing much to worry about.

I'm going to sign off now.  It's been a hard couple of days.  I hope to catch up with everyone's news soon!

Comments

[red-trillium.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you and hoping your days go easier now!

[endlessrarities.livejournal.com]

I doubt it. If I survive the next six months with my sanity and physical wellbeing intact, it'll be a miracle.

[red-trillium.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, do you think if you take the idea of "bite sized cleaning" I"ve been doing and apply it to "bite sized healing for Endlessrarities" that might give you a tool to get through? You'll need quality you-time and space. I know that is rare and hard to focus on when you're in the thick of it and really stressed. Can you make a list of things that bring you pleasure, help you relax, feed your soul? It can be anything and everything. Then make a point of shutting off the computer and doing that solidly for at least 1/2 an hour a day/every couple days at the longest?

It might be hard to find the time and I think it is worth it if you don't leave it for too long between sessions. Kind of like the Moments I was talking about doing in a previous post, where you do something that really touches you, just for you.

And we're here for you, as an outlet and a distraction.

[endlessrarities.livejournal.com]

I think that without my writing, I'd go nuts.

One of the problems is that these days, I'm too exhausted to write in the evenings.

The other problem is the garden. I get de-stressed by taking a walk round the garden after work and seeing what's happening. It's still dark when I get home just now, so this method of relaxing is as yet denied me.

This may be part of the problem. I just see my whole life sliding by as work, work, work. Don't get me wrong: I love my work, but... When I took on this job, I deliberately went for one that was under-achieving so that I'd get a life. I'm now working at an appropriate level, with no financial recompense for the added stress, and my work-life balance is suffering. The good news is that there's a good chance this is fairly short-term...

[red-trillium.livejournal.com]

I understand those kinds of days and winter really makes it more difficult because the things you'd usually do to destress isn't possible in the dark/weather.

Work, work, work can be too much. I hope it's short term for you and you're able to bring some balance back.

[endlessrarities.livejournal.com]

Oh, boy. So do I.

Things were a bit better today - the juniors are getting up to speed at last.